I'd like to extend a warm welcome to you on your first visit to Healing Well! To help you get the most out of the Depression Forum please take the time to browse our threads. You will find many wonderful posts by the members.
I am sorry to hear you are in a bad place right now but coming here and sharing with others who know where your coming from and what you are going through is a good things.
Please do feel comfortable in sharing as much or as little as your comfortable with.
Never lose hope in dealing with your fears and depression. Notice your feelings, figure out what's real, ask 'so what?', make it bigger than life, walk through it, and celebrate who you are. Do these things, make them habits.
Again a warm welcome to HW.