Oh Daisy, i hear you. The SSRIS is was on in high school made me a zombie- i felt nothing but complacence. No highs, lows- just like a robot on autopilot. It was awful. If i was in emotional pain, i couldnt feel it and sometimes you need to, like as you pointed out, when it comes to grieving etc.
I dont know how to word this as it could be considered innapropriate, but i was in a situation with a boyfriend who 'took' advantage of me physically and it wasnt till i switched meds that i felt true anger at the violation i had experienced. it was then that i was able to start the healing process.
I wish you all the very best and keep us posted, sweets.
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'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
-DX:Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ, Endometriosis,PCOS, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, OCD, Seasonal Mood Disorder. GERD, IBS.
-Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Prescription pain meds/anti inflammatories.
-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
-Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14.