Oh Daisy, i hear you. The SSRIS is was on in high school made me a zombie- i felt nothing but complacence. No highs, lows- just like a robot on autopilot. It was awful. If i was in emotional pain, i couldnt feel it and sometimes you need to, like as you pointed out, when it comes to grieving etc.
I dont know how to word this as it could be considered innapropriate, but i was in a situation with a boyfriend who 'took' advantage of me physically and it wasnt till i switched meds that i felt true anger at the violation i had experienced. it was then that i was able to start the healing process.
I wish you all the very best and keep us posted, sweets.