Hello everyone, I'm from the Crohn's board. After being officially dx'd w/crohn's in January, I've been put on the diagnosis rollercoaster once again. Now they think I may have Celiac's disease. My theory is that I may have both.
Needless to say, I've been really, truly, deeply depressed. My pcp put me on Lexapro 10mg. On Friday, I told him I didn't seem to notice any difference. He said he didn't want to "experiment with any others until my upper scope with my GI is done in November. So we dicontinued the Lexapro. I guess the reason I didn't notice any difference was that it was keeping me from not getting even more deeply depressed.
I've spent the entire weekend crying/wanting to cry. I feel like I'm losing my grip on things. Adrift, empty, washed out. My wife has been so supportive through all of this, now she is saying that it is her fault I'm depressed. I hate making her feel like that, it is all me. I'm the reason I'm depressed, not her. I love her, always have, always will. She is the love of my life, there will never be another, period.
Doc didn't return my call today, want to try something, anything.
Thanks for reading, hope you are all doing better.
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-- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet