I am sorry you do not have a good family support, I did not either. when I decided to distance myself from them, live life my way and just love them from afar, I became much happier. Economic times are tough for everybody and that just makes things worse. It does sound like you have a lot of positive things going for you, you are not afraid to work or save money. don't worry about
money you no longer have, think of making more to do the things you want to do. Having our families "blessing and praises" is a good thing, but it is not everything in life and we have all made mistakes, pay for them and go on. If we are smart we do not repeat the same mistake. Take a deep breath, vision what you can do for yourself to make your life better and work towards that goal. Do something that makes you proud of you because ultimately, that is what matters most.
I hope you feel better soon.