I have a dear friend that I mention a lot in practically every post I've ever posted here. She hasn't even been married a year (this December 2004 will be their 1 yr anniversary.). Anyway, She for the longest, still believes that her hubby made a mistake in marrying her. I'm glad that your fiancee is by your side through everything. Because that is like her now husband. See, she has something called FMS (Fibromyalgia) and is sick a lot. Her hubby told her that even when they were dating he knew that she was sick and no matter what he is there for her. He really cares! This is just my opinon but it seems like your fiancee feels the same way about you and loves you no matter what. Just hang in there and it'll be ok.