Oh my littlestrebel,
I truely feel for you. You mentioned you are married, lean on your spouse for support thats what they are for, along with friends, if you can't rely on family then rely on them. It sounds like your parents have been using you for a punching bag for most of your life. Love yourself, learn to put you first, you can survive with out them for someday they will be gone and you will go on with your life. I was in an abusive marriage and I went for counseling, it helped me get out of that situation and start a new better life. Please if you do nothing else try counseling, they will teach you how to be assertive, how to start healing and where to turn for guidence and support when you need it. Do not try to handle your parents on your own. They are two and will gang up on you. You need to rebuild your self esteem, self worth and become strong and confident, it is possible, I did it and you can too. If counseling is something you can't afford then read books, take advantage of your clergy at your church, crisis lines, and any support groups in your area. You sound depressed, seek treatment, I did and it helped so much, surround yourself with those who love and support you and you will get through this. Please don't try to do it all alone. Keep in touch, I am sure everyone here will give you as much support as you need. I certainly will. My best wishes for your future, keep in contact. Blessed be!
Blessed are the animals, they give love & affection unconditionally.