Welcome to HealinWell and the depression forum.
Often we feel bad for so long that we don't even know what it is like to feel good. It sounds like this in your case. I wonder if the doc should up your medication or even change it. Stress the fact that you don't feel good. There are so many AD's out there that I am sure they can find something to help you.
It sounds like you keep yourself pretty much isolated. Maybe you are afraid to have conversations with people. Maybe you should try to. There are a lot of wonderful people in this world, you need to find somebody that you click with to talk to.
What do you do for recreation? Perhaps you could meet somebody with the same interests as you.
Either way I am glad that you found us. It is easier to talk to people who understand what you are going through. I feel that the joking around is your way of communicating. So that isn't so bad. But I feel you need to get on another level with people. That takes time. So don't be hard on yourself for that. Keep trying, take life one day at a time and try to live in the moment.
We are here to support you. So feel free to keep posting.
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