Confused,frustrated and want to remove these negaitivities.

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   Posted 9/3/2009 8:31 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello friends my story is a bit complicated,I left an admission a year back to a pretty good university in which i had enrolled for Master's in Bioinformatics.I left it because I couldn't bear to be away from my family.but i left my dream unfinished but I believed that der is always a second chance and so i am striving my best to obtain a gud admission abroad.I have changed a lot and I have gained dis habit of suppressing my feelings and keeping away from emotions as I dnt want to carry an excess bagagge.
Secondly I have lost faith in God,I have started feeling that it is a humanised concept which has led to crusades and wars.I want to attend a position wherein I ll have nothing but a pure joy.I dnt hang out ne more wid my old frends(I know dey do care)but all have der own gud and bad days,plus I really liked dis guy but he dumped me a year back(I am over him) but after dat I have lost faith in real true love.And der is a twist to the story-the guy(another) whome I love the most never loved me back(he is my very gud frend and he has flown back to Canada).
I have become dis compulsive bookworm and a compulsive worker,I just surf on internet and I am preparing for GRE and am really anxious of that!!Its like I have so less time and so many things to do!!But I am feeling void inside me as if I cant have my parents forever and my frends too....I want to be strong and firm....

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   Posted 9/3/2009 12:20 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi there,

And welcome to healing well. I am so glad that you have joined us.

I don't know, I kind of think that your parents will be around for a while where your college oppertunities might not. You might want to persue this oppertunity to grow. I guess it goes by whatever means the most to you. I let my mom talk me out of going to and art institute. I don't regret it, but I kind of wonder what my life would have been like if I would have persued it. So lets not have any regrets. Go with your heart I guess. That is what I would do.

Best wishes to you.

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   Posted 9/4/2009 12:53 PM (GMT -7)   

Im sorry, im not entirely sure exactly what your problem is? Could you explain it again? How can we best help you?

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   Posted 9/4/2009 9:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Its just dat I ve so much of a habit to peek in my past dat sometimes i get dis negative tendency to luk at da past negative feelings and rethink dem on bad days...on the other days I always luk at da bright sides.and now I am clouded wid so many thoughts and emotions at once dat I am frustrated and mainly anxious as to how will I score in my GRE.

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   Posted 9/5/2009 1:38 AM (GMT -7)   
hi ashhealed. sometines, well for me anyway, i had to be lost to be found, remember that life is for living, with good and bad days. becoming insular and delving deep into academic work is good, but at what cost? remember that sun comes up, and that world is happening. i have learn't from some beautiful people here at hw to stay in the moment. the past is that, the here is now and the future is an ongoing process. time to smell the roses, yes i am an academic also, a friend, a neighbuor too. i have my good and bad days too, albeit i do escape from my desk a lot, as i have committements, friends and neighbours too see, my house, my dog, family etc. i am far from perfect, but balance to creating a harmonious life is key in my book. sometimes we are tested hard, as you have, keep strong in your beleif. with compassion. jamie
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