I have spent a lot of time doing some researching and from what I've read I seem to fit into the Bi-polar category. I wouldn't be surprised that I do have some PTSD from my child hood.
I'm just wanting to get better and get my life back on track. I've already spent some time in some inpatient and don't want to go bck to that. It's totally exhausting to continue to fight the way I am having to fight to get through each and every day. I'm having to watch my temper.
My anxiety is off the charts.....I feel like my heart is gonna come out of my chest. I don't sleep but that could be the anxiety or the fibro. I try to do my best to get through the day but it certainly gets tougher everyday cause most days I don't even want to get out of bed but I've gotta go out and take care of things for the family. Lately all I'd rather do is just sleep cause then I'm not having to deal with all the emotions and feelings that I am feeling.
My husband is trying his best to be supportive, my 15 yr old is very helpful and well the 10 yr old is a 10 yr old. But most people would have the support of their parents but my parents are no where in the picture and if I did say anything they would say that I'm making all this stuff up. I have a Mother-in-Law who is just as bad, every chance she gets she takes me to the side to tell me it would be best if me and the hubby would just split up. I mean how is all this helpful for me. So it really makes me wonder if I am the one to blame for everything. I wonder why god placed me on this earth, haven't figured out my purpose on why he is putting me through all this.
Zanaflax, Pristiq, Xanax, ambien and occasionally a pain killer
Fibro, depression, anxiety, PCOS