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   Posted 9/19/2009 2:45 PM (GMT -6)   
hey i am laura and i am 16. i think i might be suffering from depression but i am not quite sure. it all started when i lost around 17 lbs last year. for a whole year i kept it and got so into calorie counting and so on... i became an overexerciser, and didn't have my period for 5 months. when i stopped exercising due to not having period, and my crush moved to another country, i put on a lot of weight. Which is getting me so depressed. but i have always been unhappy because of my weight even when i had lost 17 lbs, i would always cry because i wasn't trying hard enough. now i feel like i can't live because i gained around 20 lbs. What I am going through is not like every teenager goes through. i even find it hard to wake up in the mornings. I never go out, and i don't talk. my weight is getting me so down that all i can do is crying. I cry a lot. I don't enjoy living. i think i am a stupid person, irresponsible and ugly. i think i am the most horrible person on earth. i am disgusting, i HATE my life. I hate everything about me. because i am disgusting. I want to vomit everytime i see my face. shame is all over me. and lately i have been hearing some voices. like people calling my name. Like yesterday i was in my room and dad was watching tv in the next room. from his tv, i would hear people saying my name. or the day before out of nowhere i heard someone say laura. i dont know why i am telling these, but i think i need help. what do yout think?

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   Posted 9/19/2009 3:38 PM (GMT -6)   

Hello readylaura

Welcome to HealingWell and the Depression Forum.  I am sorry you are going through tough times and I understand the weight issue even thow I am far from being a teen anymore.  redface

Is there someone you can talk to about your feelings, your parents or your family physician?  It is very common to have mixed feelings as you go through these years when every thing is changing in your body and your emotions can go up or down on a whim.

Sometimes counseling is a wonderful way to get to know yourself better and to learn to love yourself just the way you are.

Please do reach out for help and know we are supportive of you.



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   Posted 9/19/2009 6:15 PM (GMT -6)   
Oh wow that post really hit a nerve. Im 29 and have similar feelings- i hate my body, i hate my weight, i hate myself for not being able to exercise control around food. When I finished high school at 18, i was 6ft tall and extremely slim. I left high school and while I was at college I modelled.
Then I had lots of surgery and illness that caused me to gain weight rapidly- and lots of it. It stopped me being the extrovert party girl. I hide away alot, i feel like people are looking at me going "wow, she let herself go!".
I truly hate what i look like. At the same time, i have to stop and be grateful for the good things in life. Im not living in a war torn country, or living in total poverty- in reality i am very lucky.
I recently got on the scales and was so devestated that i got myself a personal trainer and im enjoying that- im a high school teacher and my teen girl students battle with body image issues daily- what society (media/magazines/movies) portrays is that unless you are stick thin there is something wrong with you. This is NOT the case. I am certain you have so much more to offer than what you give yourself credit for.
As for hearing voices, I think you should really consider seeing a professional about this- you do sound depressed and miserable- a good therapist would probably be of huge benefit to you.
Welcome to HW, keep us posted. Dont give up, dont give in,
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Post Edited (Mazfire) : 9/20/2009 4:04:35 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 9/19/2009 10:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi there,

I do agree with Maz about talking to a professional about hearing things such as your name being called. A professional can help you with that. And don't be ashamed about it. You might have a condition, but there are medications to make the voices go away. So please seek help with this.

You have probably got a really bad self image of yourself right now. So don't be so hard on yourself. Start exercising again. That will help. Try to stay away from carbs. Eat protien, find a diet that you can maintain and stick with it. I would talk to your doctor about that, they could best suggest a proper diet for you.

Walk a lot. That is good for toning and losing calories. Or I should say burning calories. Walking is good for you in a mental way too. It helps you get oxygen to the brain and you can think more clearly.

Keep posting as we are here for you.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 9/20/2009 12:00 AM (GMT -6)   
i dont think ur crazy or need to see someone about hearing voices and im not sure about how religious you are but maybe those voices r coming from god or some higher power..listen..meditate ..see what happens.. i also understand about ur weight and how you feel .. im 17 as well and sort of going through the same thing. if you would like to talk more u can IM me at _____________
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I had to edit your post- please read the forum rules before any further posting. Also- its quite irresponsible to advise someone not to seek professional help when you are not a professional and do not know their history. The same goes for us as we are not medical professionals.  If someone is hearing voices thats a good indicator to get the opinion of a doctor.

Post Edited By Moderator (Mazfire) : 9/20/2009 12:20:35 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 9/20/2009 2:57 AM (GMT -6)   
hi, i am jamie, i am male and 37. with my condition voices do avail themselves from time to time. it was worse years before as i was very unwell. there a good techniques to aid in sending them away. as i am not a dr. i feel it would be a good starting point in seeing your dr., thus you can be refered to the appropriate services for assistance. the guys are right, esp with walking, does wonders for the brain, as the voices are more apparent when we are isolating and moreso when we are depressed. happens to a lot of people, so my suggestion is: keep busy, de-stress with anything that helps, for me it is music, for you.........whatever helps. i wish you well and i hope you are feeling better real soon. with compassion.
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