Thinker, here are some numbers I found for you. Please try one of them, they are all 24-hour lines. I know you're going through a very hard time, and this may help.
USA National Suicide Hotlines
Toll-Free / 24 hours / 7 days a week
Serving Metro Denver Area
Ulcerative colitis forum co-moderator
Moderate to severe left-sided UC diagnosed 2001. Flared for 5 years, finally in remission with Remicade since March 2006. Colazal, Remicade, Nature's Way Primadophilus Reuteri.
Avascular necrosis in both shoulders is my "forever" gift from steroids.
Chronic joint/connective tissue/muscle pain; TKR 05/09
"My life is an ongoing medical adventure"