Hello all, I am a frequent visitor to the site, and while I do not post a lot, I do take a lot out the messages I read. A little background about myself, I am a 30 year old, college educated, fun, outgoing, good looking, in great physical shape, and while all that may seem great to some, I am missing the things that make people happy, and have a life they are proud of. I was let go of my job in June and I was left with no option but to leave the state of Florida and start over and so I was encouraged to move in with my brother and his wife. So I took them up on the offer and I thought for sure that I would be able to land a job in the big city, well after a couple of frustrating interviews I am still without a job, and most recently I have gone on 3 interviews with the same company for a position that is perfect for my skillset and education. I had the last interview this past Tuesday and I got the usual we will get back to you very soon for round 4, and while this process is very very frustrating I feel as if it is a test of my patience for how much I want (and need) this position. But getting back to the way I feel, I feel like I am 30 years old and I feel like I am so far behind the 8 ball with "life" i.e getting married, having kids, white picket house the american dream I know it is my dream to have all those, and I feel like I am NEVER going to attain them. At this very moment I feel so lost, confused and hurt and I feel like the wheels are just spinning off of my life because I have not made the most of life and this economy is not helping at all. I feel as if I do not get this position (and I am thinking POSITIVE I will) I will have to move back to my parents house in a different state and that would put me in a bigger funk then I am already am in, I guess I am looking for my big break and I am willing to do whatever it is to achieve it. I do not know what to do, I have never ever been this low, or felt this bad about myself especially when so many people expect so many big things from me because who I am (or who they view me as) and I need to get back to me loving myself, getting my self-confidence back and for me to get a life rolling! I would greatly appreciate any and all feed back anyone could give me, I feel like reading these boards is all I have and that y'all are my psychologist.