Welcome to HealingWell and the depression forum.
I am sorry that you are feeling so bad and that your medication is all messed up. It sounds like your doctor is not listening to you at this time. I would keep telling him whenever it gets bad. If he/she doesn't respond, I would start looking for another doctor. Or get a psychiatrist. They are so helpful. I see one and I see a psychologist too. They seem to keep me straight. I think it would benefit you also.
Learn to love yourself. Treat yourself good because you deserve that. You are a special person and remember that. And I am sure that you can do most anything that you put your mind to. So I would start workng on getting some medical attention for your depression one way or another. Maybe your doctor could recommend a therapist or pdoc for you.
Best wishes for feeling better.
I am going to give your thread a title.
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