October 1st will be the 1st anniversary of the passing of my sister. My depression has been pretty bad remembering her makes things even tougher. She was such an influence in my life and I am constantly reminding myself that she is where she would want to be if not here with her family. I found several cards and little things that were given to me over the years and it is bittersweet. I miss her so very much. I have an extreme amount of turmoil in my life now! I feel so lost and my life seems to matter less to people that I care about. I have truly found that even the best of girlfriends let you down.
I find myself trusting noone lately and feel like I am under a microscope for everything I say or do. You know, I just get tired of me. I am playing the thought of moving either to another city or in the suburbs of my town. Just feel lonely and maybe change of direction is one of the solutions, I dont know.
My daughter and grandson have left and are staying with others right now, we are fine, she just has to take care of things. One good thing has come of this and that is that my grandson's other grandmother have talked after many inconsiderate words and actions. I am trying a new beginning with her and it seems positive.
I hope everyone is doing ok, I think of you even though I dont post
" God not only sends special angels into our lives, but sometimes He even sends them back again if we forget to take notes the first time!"
Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994
" We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another."
Luciano de Crescenzo