heyy the problem is a couple off things. since i was in elementary school councelors have said that i have depression and altrougth up to high school (im 17) they have said the same and they have even said when i got up to high school that i had enxiety and addiction problems and was recomended to see a psycologist butt my parents never have wanted 4 me 2. eavry day and drink almost eavry day and whenever i can get my hands on eanithing alse i do it 2. also mostt off my worst and most recent depression has come from a recent problem when around a year ago i started going out with this girl and we dated for around 6 months or 4 and i had realised trougth this relationship that i had a bigg problem since i was completely obssesed with her and trougth that relationship lots off things happened wich left her has my only meens besides to cheer me up, such has i got arrested, kicked out off school, beaten by my parents for the 1st and only timme, friends died and she was always there trougth all off it, after she broke up with me i went for around 3 months drinking and getting really drunk and and eanithing alse i could do to try and forget about
her and trougth that timme i insulted her daily for a reason i still cant understand after that timme passed and we didnt talk for about
3 months we became friends with benefits and friends again and now she is one off my best friends butt not being able to go out with her makes me want 2 drink and myself some how eavry day to just forget about
her also about
3 weeks ago i left the U.S. to go to my homme country where i have been for the last 4 weeks where i courently dont have any friends, my parents dont let me go out since we have just arrived and i dont know much here and its dangerouse, i start school soon and all i do all day is stay homme and compusevly look for any sign off atention from this girl who just today told me that she didnt want 2 talk 2 me for the next couple off months, eavry day and eavry hour prity much i cant help butt think about
her obbsesivly and always want 2 be with her, i check my email eavry day for unlist an hour or 2 after i write her a misseage (usually around 5 or 6 messages eavry 5 hours) 2 check iff shes talked 2 me. trougth all that has happened 2 me with her im still in love with her and all i want 2 do right now is myself i really dont know what to do not to mention whenever we talk i try and find out iff shes been with other guys and the response i got is usually a yes. for what iv looked up what i have sounds like a thing called "obbsesive love" butt i could just be thinking it is. i really need help i dont know what to do i feal like all this has been building up inside and covered up by and now is starting to spill over i really need help.
sorry to eavry one for my horrible writing and thanks to eany one that may post something or has taken the timme to read this
Sorry that I had to edit, please read forum rules. We are not to mention illegal drugs or suicide.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/4/2009 11:24:14 PM (GMT-6)