Thanks guys! I feel better just reading what each of you wrote. And Cass, beautifully written!
I do know that he has to be scared. He claims he did nothing, but I honestly cant put those actions past him. I told him it didnt matter to me what he did or did not do with her and that I wasnt mad or upset with him that I just wanted to help and that its a very important situation. He lied about
dating her when I asked a few days ago. Last night I said you dumped her didnt you. And he said yes. But I can tell when there is something going on with him. He has a VERY distinct personality and way of dealing with different things. So, I can always tell. He has twitches, and facial expressions, and different reactions... I can always tell.
I know he has to be scared. If they did do something and she really is pregnant than that is going to change all of life for them. I feel comfortable asking the right questions to others(although I dont always like people asking me things lol) But I asked her specifically, if she is... is it my brothers for sure. She said yes, she hadn't been with anyone else. Im really worried about
it. She wants to keep it. I gave her some options to think about
because I know my mom would do an
open adoption with her if she wanted so that she could be in its life. BTW, she lives 2 houses down. She never has lived in the best situation or environment for a child.
But, I tried to guide her into thinking about
all of this once she is positive. And that when that time comes, if it does, then she needs to talk about
what is best for the baby. I just told her if she needed anything or needed to talk I would be there for her...
Its true, I am very overwhelmed with school and homework and everything in my life. I pay attention to every little thing, therefore every thing overwhelms me. I think I do disassociate from the real world alot of the time... Im always in my own world, especially when something like what happened yesterday happens. A lot the time I just feel like I HAVE to do that.. I cant deal with being in this world and I need to get away and go to my own place or whatever. Its a stange feeling when I do that.... but somehow it feels better than being in reality.
Adderall- I didnt get it yesterday because the nurse needed to talk to my doctor first and he is off until Tuesday. She said she would talk to another doctor and try to see if they would approve the switch but it may not be until Tuesday when my doc comes back that I can get it.... And yes, I asked the nurse about
the trazadone... she said to take it everyday at the same time. No matter what. Thats what makes me so shaky etc the next day when I dont take it the night before. Plus, it also helps depression etc so I figure taking it may help that improve also.
Well, I am skipping my first class today. I just need a break, Chemistry really gets to me. I can never pay attention and I couldnt do my work I needed to have done today for it so.... Im just looking forward to talking to my therapist today. Anyways, I do feel better reading what you all wrote. and I really really appreciate it, very much. thank you guys, i know i can always count on yall.. :)
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in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
"Sometimes it is best to
what you feel
what you deserve