Welcome to HealingWell and the depression forum. I am so glad that you have joined us and I am sure there will be many different responses to this post.
For me it was a long time before I was able to get out, but at that time, I didn't have to work, so it wasn't such a big deal. I just gave myself some time. But if you have to work, it is a different story. You don't want to lose your job. It took medications for me, which if I remember right, you aren't taking any.
Have you tried going for short walks? That really helped me a lot. It got my heartrate up and I was able to do more. I always felt so good after a walk. I walked my dogs, so it was at a fast pace and that really helped. Even if you just go for a little while it still helps.
Have you tried psyching yourself up for it and just going? That often helps too, because once you get there you tend to feel better and can get back in the right frame of mind for work.
Either way, I hope that you feel better. Are you still going to counseling? Maybe your counselor has some good ideas for you. I can tell that you are troubled by this, and you really do need to work. It makes you feel better about yourself, it does me anyway. And if you are depending on the income, you really need to try really hard. As I am sure that you are.
Keep posting, this is a wonderful forum with a lot of compassionate members. I hope that you feel better soon.
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