Jamie said something to me in one of my posts about
me seeming disassociated or something so I looked that up. It seemed like common sense and I was on the right track when I thought about
what it was. But, something caught my eye. The different disorders, one being: depersonalization disorder.
Does anyone here have that or know anything about it?
As usual, I did some research and I hadn't really heard of this much before. Also, as soon as I read what it was I was like "wow, I've had that experience before and have been the last few days." If anyone can remember, I have posted a few times (last year) about when I looked in the mirror and felt like I wasnt seeing myself and that I was outside looking at a person in the mirror who was not me..... If you remember, then you can recall my having a depersonalized episode. Thats what that was. And the last few days me feeling outside of reality... thats the same thing. But several times I have had the thing in the mirror where I didnt see myself...but was of course looking at myself in the mirror. That freaked me out, but I never knew what it was.... I just thought it was my depression or something...
I have never been asked about this type of thing by my psychiatrist.... so I never thought to mention it, but now it seems a little more important.... Should I tell him?
The only thing is (and Im very upset about this)..is that I dont see him again until January!!!!!..... I see my therapist about every other week usually... but she is less serious than he is. And she tends to laugh about things so I dont want to talk to her about it.. she will just think Im crazy. He is a lot more understanding and sees it as not being my fault and he understands more. Maybe you guys can understand that.
But, what should I do? The other thing is, I read that this type of thing most likely occurs in people who were abused as children or had some sort of traumatic event happen, etc.... and as far as I know I dont have anything like that. Ther could be one thing... but I dont ever talk about it to anyone at all. Unless I dont remember something, I may just be a rare case to this disorder. I am positive I can add this to my list... I have most definitely experienced exactly what it describes. My therapist read me my list of stuff yesterday and she said everytime I see my pdoc it gets longer and longer. It was like: anxiety disorder, panic disorder w/o agoraphobia, eating disorder, adhd, dysthymia, fibromyalgia.. maybe something else. So, why not add depersonalization disorder..... might as well I suppose. It would explain ALOT.
Any comments or advice is very much appreciated......
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