hi Mellony i have just read ur post's and it sound's like your near rock bottom?? My suggestion is that you ask either a Family member,friend or ur G.P. to get u to the emergency department,see your pshyc get your self booked into a Mental Health Facility and get the doctors to change ur medication's!! I have been where u are many,many times and the last time i was an inpatient was 6mths ago because i was feeling just like you. So i beg you please go and get some help for YOU and nobody else.I know the last time was very hard for you but dont be scared about being in a hospital!!! We all have mental illness on this forum and it is nothing to be ashamed of ok.If u ever need to vent to someone please dont hesitate to vent to me, i mean it!!! I'm really worried about you!! Can u promise you will stay safe?? Hope this help's.
REMEMBER TOMORROW IS ANOTHER NEW DAY!!!!!
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
also suffer from chronic depression which is mostly caused by my lack of hormone's.
I AM CURRENTLY ON AVANZA FOR MY DEPRESSION!!!!!!!