43, jobless & depressed...majorly!

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   Posted 10/15/2009 4:35 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm new here.  My name is Autumn.
I have no health insurance or a job.  My husband and son don't understand depression at all.  I don't feel I have the strength to look for a job anymore or that I can deal with people.  I keep trying to figure out a way to get help without bankrupting my family...I won't do it.  So then my thoughts lead to my life insurance policy.
I've been depressed for years and on prozac for about 12 yrs.  When I was put on prozac I was diagnosed with clinical depression.  I do my best to hide it...I'm actually pretty good at it.
During the day when my husband and son are gone I am just lost to depression.  Then when they get home I clean up my act.
I don't want to be a burden.
Anyways, thanks for letting me vent.

getting by
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   Posted 10/15/2009 4:53 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Autumn,

Welcome to the HealingWell depression forum. Are you looking for part time work, or full time work? You might have to take something part time this time of year. Around here, the tourist season is about over and you are lucky to find a part time job. The economy is so bad. But we do get snowmobilers once we get snow. Yes, the four letter word. Here in Michigan we get a lot of it.

I am sorry that you are dealing with such a hard time. But you are lucky that you can put on a happy face when your husband and child are there. But maybe you should talk to him and tell him how you are really feeling. Hopefully he will understand and want to help you. Honesty is always the best policy.

If you are low income you might fall under a program with social services. Or a mental health program. It would be worth checking into. Find all of the resources that you can that you are entitled to. Being you have a child, that helps even more. If nothing else, you might be able to get food stamps to help out. That would make you feel better since you are worried about finances.

I hope that you feel better soon. There are a couple of online programs that are free that you might want to try.


These are both free. I hope that they help you.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 10/15/2009 6:43 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Autumn (I love your name!) and welcome to HW. Karen has given you helpful information and I noticed you said you have been on Prozac for 12 yrs. Does it still work for you, or could it maybe be time for a change in meds? Also are you in therapy? I wish you better days ahead-
Maz XX
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" Why does society view illness as weakness?" (Montell Jordan)
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   Posted 10/16/2009 9:33 AM (GMT -6)   
hi autumn, a lovely time of year, and name. maybe a chat with your doc, i think maz is on the right track, maybe a change, unfortunately meds do poop out. sorry that your depressed and having to mask your pain. time to educate the family, otherwise they will never really understand your pain, the mask and your depression. hard i know, i did this with my family-after 20 odd years they are finally getting it. my compassionate healings to you. thank you for sharing, i admire your courage. jamie
dx, mdd, severe borderline personality disorder.
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