Welcome to HW. Its normal to be afraid of death, im sure people dont look forward to it, but it sounds like its a fear that is controlling your life. If I give you some website links would you look them up? I think you would find them very helpful.
Are you in the process of finding a counsellor? If you are still at school or college you are entitled to see a guidance/counsellor.
Where do you think your fear of death comes from? Have you lost loved ones?
Im going to post you some links-
ZEN for Everyday Living
Free CBT Online/MoodGYM
E-couch Online, free
Teen depression & associated issues:
Co-Moderator Anxiety & Panic- Depression
" Why does society view illness as weakness?" (Montell Jordan)
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-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
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