I dont think this new med could have come into my life at a better time. The past 2 weeks have been the worst ever and have involved lots of crying and crazy thinking. I was lower than Ive ever been before. I didnt care about my life anymore. And thats not what I like to think because I know there is so much out there for me and SO much I want to do!
Since I started taking the med I had a full day at school Friday and hanging out with friends. I also surprised my gf by kissing her in front of quite a few people, but I didnt care so she was happy... Our first kiss was awkward so this one went smooth and it was all ME! I didnt even think twice about it so Im really proud of myself!
I was asked to go camping last night by my best friends... and it was around freezing for the first time overnight this year and well..... despite my parents saying I would get sick and despite my high anxiety about it... I WENT! So, a group of us drove an hour to our friends house and went back in the woods and camped out! We had a great time... although, I am going to do a seperate post about an issue that came up during this trip....
Anyways, I have had a really good time and I dont feel AS stressed and overwhelmed as I did... Luckily, I dont have any exams or anything this week so Im happy about that. I have an appt with my therapist Tuesday... Im kind of proud that I have some stuff to tell her..she will be shocked to hear I have actually been social! lol... Usually, I dont tell her anything because I dont know what to say so... she will be glad to not be bored the whole time.
Next week I have an appt with the nurse to check up on my new med and see how things are doing... Also, I know yall said to take it in the morning so I could sleep at night, and I take it as soon as I wake up, but I can stay up a lot later than I used to and still get up early and feel okay! I can focus in the early hours and still get up feeling like I slept so it is also helping me have more time to do things I need to get done so... Im happy about that.
A few things I also wanted to mention... since I changed my major to Social Work... I have really opened up more and released my feelings for the well-being of others. I went into Wal-Mart with my mom and left with 4 big bags of Halloween candy for a project where we make goodie bags and give to kids who would otherwise not have a Halloween. I have been looking into more volunteer opportunities like I have done once before... the only difference is I finally feel able to do more that I really want to do. Also, I should be getting my college leftover money back soon and I have finally decided what I want to do with most of it. We have the Angel Tree here were you adopt a childs name off the Christmas tree and they have a list of things they need and want and you sponsor them by buying whats on there list etc.... I have decided that I want to adopt as many as I can and go buy a bunch of stuff for those kids using my school money. These kids would otherwise have nothing to open on Christmas and that makes me very VERY sad because I have always been blessed with a great Christmas morning and I know the best feeling is waking up to presents under the tree and I want to give that to as many kids as I can. I have been thinking about things I want. On the top of my list is helping others.... but then I want an iPod touch... and a Wii and everything... and I could use my money for that, but I have decided I want to do the Angel Tree project. My favorite thing about Christmas is buying presents for other people and it would mean SO much to me if I could allow others to have a Christmas. Otherwise, they wouldnt have anything... so I am going to try to adopt as many names as I can... usually people get 1 or maybe 2 so I am going for that.... but if possible Im going to try to catch all the sales and use the money wisely so I am able to buy more and support more kids for Christmas. And I cant wait to do it!!! Im so excited about it cause I love giving to people who need it and I only wish I could be there Christmas morning to see the look on there faces!
Well, I need to do a seperate post before I leave... more running around to do lol... thanks for all the help and support because I never could have done this without you all. Seriously, you guys mean SO much to me! Take care
Lyrica (15 months-quit Feb. 09), Paxil (10 months-quit 6-4-09), Cymbalta 6-6-09(horrible effects), Rozerem, Melatonin, Currently taking: Prozac 40mg (July 09), Trazadone 50mg (Sept 09)-Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Eating Disorder, ADHD, Dysthymic Disorder"Cracks
in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
"Sometimes it is best to
what you feel
what you deserve
Post Edited (TeNNiSd0C09) : 10/18/2009 5:12:45 PM (GMT-6)