Oh yes Panike! I remember you! And I understand... I was having trouble finding time to post a few months back with high school and graduation and everything... but now I spend so much extra time on campus at the library, I cant check my facebook or anything there so I always come here! Which is a plus! So, I spend more time on here now...
Well, I have had lots of ups and downs these past months. I finally graduated and have started college so I have all new stresses in my life. I switched to cymbalta which caused me to have panic attacks so I switched again and so far I havent had any... just anxiety attacks occasionally. I also started taking Prozac.. It really hasnt done much for me. I think what has helped me more than anything has been my Focalin. It helps me focus and gives me some energy. So, it kind of helps mellow me out some. Rather than just be so far down in the dumps.. Also, I take Trazadone so that I am able to sleep. Im not sure what I would be like if I didnt take those two things, but I dont think the Prozac is doing much... hard to tell when taking so many meds at once...
Wow, that doesnt sound like a good thing at all... Im pretty glad we ran out of alcohol...otherwise I probably would have kept drinking. I have no idea how far I would have taken it. I get sick pretty easily and I can always feel it coming.. but that doesnt matter when your drinking since its already too late.. I really didnt feel drunk when this happened. But, I knew I was because I felt fine and thought everything was okay, but I really couldnt walk straight so.. I felt good actually. I didnt feel sick at all. I felt awesome and out-going and hyper. I could have stayed up all night laughing and having a good time... before passing out in the a.m. of course! But, I never once felt sick... and the next day I felt 100% fine.
I cant really remember the day after... I remember feeling good the next morning and I was ready to go home and I had had so much fun... and it was a long drive home and we just had a good time. I was tired later on but I really cant remember anything else. I suppose I will have to go back and read what I posted here...
I havent gotten the chance to drink again. But, knowing all of this, I still probably will. And thats a very stupid decision on my part I will admit. I just have some caring issues towards myself and a problem with destructive behavior that I need to work on..
Thanks for sharing that with me...take care
Lyrica (15 months-quit Feb. 09), Paxil (10 months-quit 6-4-09), Cymbalta 6-6-09(horrible effects), Rozerem, Melatonin, Currently taking: Prozac 40mg (July 09), Trazadone 50mg (Sept 09)-Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Eating Disorder, ADHD, Dysthymic Disorder"Cracks
in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
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what you feel
what you deserve