Hello, again. It's been two months since my last post. I keep myself busy with teaching, parenting and being a husband.
To review: past suicide attempt 20 yrs ago; marriage troubles starting 10 yrs; affair started, lasted 3 yrs, ended 6 yrs ago; diagnosed with dysthymia in Jan 09, began Cipralex; worsened, involuntary hospitalisation Mar 09, 3 wks, diagnosed Mixed Personality Disorder; successful Intensive DBT for 6 weeks May to Jun 09; seeing MSW every 2 or 3 wks since Jun 09, focussing on GAD, managing my anxieties; and began seeing new Dr last two wks, too. He's altered my meds to see if I can be less drowsy, and wants to explore my past a bit.
They all say that I've come a long way, that I'm doing it all 'right'. But I feel like I am just back to the dysthymia pre Jan 09. I just want to be alone, live far from others. Work, then go home.
But I just keep plugging along. I do get excited about my children, and the unique work I do at my job, but it doesn't last.
I'm trying to cope with my wife and her anxiety and moodiness, which hurts. I miss her still. I feel a fool.
Hope that you are all well, especially Raniah, Karen, Kitt, Jaimee, and Akram (sp?).