hi to all hope ur all doing well?? i had a look at my second post from yesterday and i really didn't explain it properly. The issue with the housework for instance,i have to clean the house from top to bottom everyday regardless of how i feel, but mostly the house doesn't need to be done each day as it's spotless!!! I'm a perfectionist so everything is in it's place and as i said the house is just so clean,so why do i have to do it every day?? The answer to that is my parents being on a power trip with me. It's like the other day i ran out of toilet paper and asked if i could borrow a roll till i got to the shop,and i have an ileostomy and need my toilet paper,my Dad said "do the ironing and pay me $3.50 and you can have one" that's how pathetic my family are. Also Karen suggested that i ring someone, that's the problem nobody wants to talk to me about
any of my issues as they are all to wrapped up in there little "world" but without me in it. I honestly dont know why i bother anymore as all I do everyday is something for someone else and NEVER for myself!!!! Sorry i'm venting again. My head is so mixed up and confused today and i cant think straight...... Get me out of this hell hole please......
I ALSO WROTE THIS POEM LAST NIGHT
MY HOUSE OF COMFORT........
a friend i find
hidden in my mind,
I race toward the finish line.
Ive found my resting place,
for my soul to roam.
standing in the rain,
helps relieve the pain
i'm naked and crying
releasing my feared dreams,
with an evening of no sun,
or moon,this rains down on me
as i ponder my home with a house
under a tree. I'm now living to
finally be free.
I've now found my resting
place for my soul to roam,
i've finally found my true
home. My house of comfort.
it's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited
time on this earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up,we will then begin to live each day to the fullest,as if it was the last one we had!!!!!!!!!!
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
also suffer from chronic depression which is mostly caused by my lack of hormone's.
I AM CURRENTLY ON AVANZA FOR MY DEPRESSION!!!!!!!