I'VE BEEN SITTING AROUND THIS LIFE FOR YEARS,
NOT ENOUGH LAUGHS AND TO MANY TEARS.
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE IT ALL WENT,
THESE WASTED YEARS THAT I HAVE SPENT.
LOOKING FOR SOMETHING TO GO BEYOND,
LIFE'S A STONE SKIPPING ACROSS A POND,
AT THE LAST SKIP,IT HIT'S WITH A SPLASH,
DOWN THE STONE SINKS AND GONE IN A FLASH.
PUSHING PULLING,IT'S TEARING ME APART,
POKING PRODING AN UNDERUSED HEART.
THIS CURTAIN THAT HIDES MY SOUL,
LIVING MY LIFE HAS TAKEN IT'S TOLL.
IN A FLASH OF LIGHT,THE CURTAIN IS TORN,
FALLING DOWN ALL TATTERED AND WORN.
NOW MY EYE'S SEE WHAT HAS NEVER BEEN TOLD,
STRIVING TO BE HAPPY,CONFIDENT AND BOLD.
IN A WORLD THAT'S UNFAMILIAR BUT FRIENDLY,INTO THIS NEW LIFE MY SPIRIT WILL SEND ME.
THE DARKENSS HAS GONE,REPLACED BY LIGHT,
I GAVE UP THE DARKNESS WITHOUT A FIGHT.
I'VE BEEN SITTING AROUND THIS LIFE FOR TO
MANY YEARS,WITH LAUGHTER A PLENTY AND
NOW I CAN SEE WHERE IT ALL WENT,
NOW I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT OF
THIS NEW LIFE I HAVE SPENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wrote on the 27th October,2009.
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!