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   Posted 11/1/2009 9:37 PM (GMT -6)   
I knew when I woke up this morning that something was wrong with me. All day I have felt aggitated and just like something was going to happen or something. All day the feeling has become stronger and stronger. And finally when I started shaking and getting really upset easily I knew why I had felt like that all day. I had another episode.
The last was a week ago exactly. And Ive never had them so close together before. This one was less severe, however it was just as bad as everytime. The same old thing. I run to the bathroom and light a candle, bring a pillow, blanket, phone charger (I make sure I bring everything in case I dont come out and spend the night in there...and so I wont have to come out for anything) and I set everything up just as I always do. Then came the tears. Then the rocking that helps. The breathing, or lack thereof.... and the negative thoughts. I just sit an talk to myself for a while with so many things going through my head.
I hate it. Im so tired of this happening all the time. Im so overwhelmed and stressed with school and that helps cause the episodes yes, but the episodes cause me to get stressed over school because I am less able to do my work and I just dont care about it... so its a huge cycle that I cant end no matter how hard I try.
I feel the effects of these episodes for days, and sometimes weeks from when they occur so I anticipate yet another bad week after this last one. Im supposed to go tomorrow to pick up my new med thats supposed to help these episodes and feelings... At first I was wondering when I would be able to test the meds.... at this rate it should be really soon....
cry    Christi
Lyrica (15 months-quit Feb. 09), Paxil (10 months-quit 6-4-09), Cymbalta 6-6-09(horrible effects), Rozerem, Melatonin, Currently taking: Prozac 40mg (July 09), Trazadone 50mg (Sept 09)-Fibromyalgia, Depression, Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Eating Disorder, ADHD, Dysthymic Disorder
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   Posted 11/1/2009 10:15 PM (GMT -6)   
My Dear Christi,

I am so sorry that you had another episode. But hopefully the new medication will help. You will find out tomorrow. Until then try deep breathing to help you relax. Play some soothing music that you like and try to relax.... That is the key word. relax. relax. relax.

Do what you need to do to calm you down. And remember that we are all here for you. So if you need to talk, you know where to come. And as always, my email is open to you. Or maybe I will catch you on facebook again. Best wishes sweetie.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 11/7/2009 9:24 PM (GMT -6)   
hello Christi,
I would like to say that i'm sorry that your in such pain at this time in ur life. depression is a debilitating disease isn't it and sometimes it just becomes overwhelming no matter what we try to do about it. I also agree with Karen and what she has put in her reply to you. I hope ur med's do there job and you are back on ur feet soon. Chin-up darling you will get there in the end. My thought's are with you.
take care,
beverley. wink
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colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
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