I just read ur post and you sound like a very confused young girl?? I can understand what your trying to say. It's like one part of you wants to do the right thing by your family and also your boyfriend. But do you think that maybe your putting to much pressure on ur self with regard's to your boyfrien's "needs". If he truly loves you,he will wait until you are
truly ready.Please dont make the mistake of going to that point with him,when I believe your only going to do it because he want's to??
Can you talk to him and explaine how it's affecting you and how your feeling depressed and cant cope very well. None of this is your fault,i just think your being pressured into something you aren't ready to do yet!!!! I hope this help's you a little. Also do you have a good councellor at ur college,if you do please dont hesitate to talk to him/her ok. You need to get some of this off ur chest.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!