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Date Joined Jul 2009
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   Posted 11/5/2009 11:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Depression has taken over my life. The feelings started two weeks ago and have been getting worse.

I have dealt with depression before, most recently in 2006 after #2 was born. It was bad. I couldn't leave the house or have visitors. I could only be around DH and parents. This lasted 8 weeks before my medication kicked in.

I went back to work and life was great. I have had episodes of anxiety, but the depression has not been an issue since 2006.

I don't know if I can describe this feeling, but I need to type this out so I can take it to my doctor. Sometimes when I am in his office I clam up and forget what to say.

It feels like every task takes a monumental effort. Putting on my make up to get ready for work makes my limbs feel like they weigh a million pounds. Choosing my wardrobe confuses me.

I love my work. But when I'm there I have been just sitting at my desk. I am hardly functioning. I can't bear to answer the phone, and returning emails and working on projects is overwhelming. Work is something I like. This isn't normal. My mom invited me to lunch today (I love her) but I couldn't get out of my office because I was stuck in my chair.

I love coming home and taking care of my house. It makes me feel so good to clean, laundry, do floors, change sheets. I can't do it. I have been looking at a folded pile of laundry on the kitchen table for two weeks and I can't put it away. The washer and dryer are free and I can't start or finish a load.

Husband has to take care of the girls because they overwhelm me with their demands. I love them. What's the deal? I have to get better so that they don't have horrible memories of their mother holed up in the bed bawling. I never cry. Something is wrong. But there are no external stresses on me. I'm well cared for, have a good job, and a supportive family.

Right now I take 20mg of Lexapro per day and I'm Rx'd 1mg of Xanax 2x a day (I don't take it that often).

I'm sorry for the pitiful whine. I don't deserve to be *****ing- many people don't have the family system that I do and I know it's a blessing. My mom took my kids for an hour tonight. I got in bed with DH and he just hugged me really tight.

I have to claw my way out of this. I can't sit at home and cry, I don't want to.

Thanks for letting me put this here. I have to put it into words so I can share it with my doctor.


Lexapro has pooped out on me before, and I went to Effexor and back to Lexapro.  What do I try next?

Any thoughts or support would be appreciated.

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Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
75 mg Effexor XR, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine

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Date Joined Nov 2009
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   Posted 11/6/2009 12:33 AM (GMT -6)   
I know how you feel. I am not at that point right now but I have been there. Just keep those loved ones in mind. They somehow help you through it. My husband I feel kept me alive when I was at my worst. Medications are so difficult. I have tried Effexor before but I got a horrible rash on my back. I am on cymbalta but I think my body is not even recognizing it anymore. I take that, prozac, and clonazepam. Days like today frustrate me so much because I feel like they are doing nothing for me. They say to never just stop taking meds. I guess its time to visit the Psychiatrist again. Anyways, I hope you find a new med that helps you feel more like yourself again. We sure take those regular days for granted dont we?

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Date Joined Jul 2009
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   Posted 11/6/2009 12:40 AM (GMT -6)   
Truly- a good half day would be awesome! I can't even go to the grocery store without being overwhelmed.

Maybe I need a med combo, that's something my doctor hasn't tried with me yet. I don't know what can be added to Lexapro that can boost my frame of mind and help me be the person I really am!

Thanks for your reply! I hope you get in to see your dr soon!
Holly- GAD, Migraines, TMJ disorder, Thyroid Disease
75 mg Effexor XR, 1mg Xanax PRN, Maxalt, Phenegran, Levothyroxine

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   Posted 11/6/2009 12:59 AM (GMT -6)   
Ask your doctor if he thinks abilify would help you. It has helped me a lot and I take it with effexor, though I am going on pristiq right now. Weaning off of the effexor.

Abilify is a mood stabilizer. And it seems to give energy. I am very happy with it and haven't been depressed bad now for over a year. It is worth a shot. I know that you can take it with lexapro. Pretty sure, anyway.

I hope that this helps some.

Hugs, Karen
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