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   Posted 11/6/2009 6:34 PM (GMT -6)   
I have been on edge SO much lately. I got my clonazopam filled on Monday and I took it on Monday.. and again on Wednesday. Im supposed to take it as needed and so I have been. I only have a limited amount of there, but I am having more episodes than ever before. I am always stressed to the maximum. I cant stop shaking, and whenever I sit down I am shaking both of my legs really fast constantly. Or I am playing with my fingers.
Im on edge. And Im anxious about a lot of things. School has been really hard for me and it is only getting worse.
For those of you who know the story about my friend who is pregnant, we found out today that its a boy. And she and the "suspected" father are upset because they wanted a girl. This means I will be caring for the baby the majority of the time. I dont mind, I am so attached and I love this baby so much already. She told me she was pregnant on my birthday. And I have prayed for a little boy and my prayers were answered. I cant stop looking at his pictures I have because there is just such a huge bond-like thing going on. I just want to hold his pictures and look at him.
I dont know why I feel this strongly about him. He is not mine, not biologically at least... but in a different way I feel like he IS mine. And I feel like I am the only person who loves him and wants him.
I really dont want to talk about it much because I cant allow myself to get my hopes up and be crushed in the end. Im so attached but it could turn out where I never see him or anything... and that would crush me so... I just cant even talk it at all... I have to hold all of this in because its not my place to say anything ya know. I have no right to say anything to them about him or anything like that... even though I really want too..which is SO hard.
Anyways, I just cant talk about it right now... Im so upset about everything that is going on. Things in my life dont seem to fall into the right place.. Everything is complicated.... I just want everything to work out and it never seems that will happen. Im so anxious and on edge and I dont know what to do.... I cant just take the medicine because I only have a certain amount...but at the same time, I need it...
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   Posted 11/6/2009 8:21 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Christi,
I think that maybe you are having side effects from the focalin.  When I get up in the morning, I shake my leg until my medications kick in.  It is like a nervous habit.  But once my meds kick in and I start moving around I stop.  I imagine that you only do this when you are sitting around in class and stuff.  You might need to cut back on the focalin and then you probably wont need so much of the clonazapam.  Are you drinking those energy drinks?  That will make you nervous too especially when you are taking a stimulant.  Either way it sounds like a stimulant side effect to me.  But you should ask your doctor about it, if it is bothersome, he can cut your dose back or add some more clonazapam. 
I wouldn't get my hopes up too much with the baby.  It sounds like your friend is rather shallow if she is only going to keep it if it is a girl.  So she could easily change her mind.  But it would be cool if your mom could adopt it like you said.  I hope that things work out well for the baby.  He is most important right now.
I hope that you have a good night.  Take care. 
Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 11/6/2009 10:05 PM (GMT -6)   

Christi I agree with Karen re the baby- and I dont think its wise to invest yourself emotionally into a potentially volatile situation. I think you have alot of love to give and maybe the baby is one way of you giving unconditional love, but the whole situation sounds a bit up in the air and Id hate to see you get hurt.

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