my daughter rebecca has been having councelling on and off since she was 5yrs old,but when she turned about 13-14yrs she told me she didnt want to do it anymore and wanted to put it all behind her?? So that stopped and thats when she started to use stuff. Then at 15yrs she left school and met the fahter of her daughter Tahlia-Rose who she said got her onto the drugs and he still is an addict. Anyway after Becc left home things just went from bad to worse. I remember when i was in hospital one time for about 2weeks and while i was in there my house was broken into and my safe that was under the floor was taken which had thousands of dollars in there that i had saved and also all of my medication was gone,then 1 week later again broken into and all of my clothing,shoes ect gone. Then i found out that my daughter had done all of this,which is very sad but i still cant hold it against her and have forgiven her for what she has done to me. What i cant or dont understand is why does she only contact me if shes in jail or she need's money ect!!
Why cant she just ring me and say hi mum it's Becc im letting you know that im ok and maybe ask me if we could get together for a coffee or just a txt msg for me. I never know from day to day if my child is still alive and thats the next call that im dredding,saying she's overdosed.
Also karen becc has been to about 8 different places to detox and rehab but she never lasts the full time in there and the day she gets out she uses drugs straight away. I have spoken to her about some councelling for the both of us to try and bring us back together and help her with her addiction but she wont do it. so i have really tried everything i can Karen and now have hit a brickwall with nowhere to turn. ive tried alanon and other to no avail. all i want is my daughter back,it feels like she has died and there is someone else in her body,thats the only way i can describe how i feel. And next week i have to go back to the court for Tahlia my grandaughter to find out what the future holds for her the poor little girl,she's only 3 and for the last 2yrs has been in care with D.H.S being pushed from person to person. the poor thing is really starting to suffer and that also breaks my heart. She deserves better than having a life like that. and i only get to have her once a week,not enough!!!! im going to apply for full custody of her as i know that i can look after her very well and she loves me so much. But regardless of all of this i will forever blame myself for what her father did to her.....
diagnosed with C in 2001.
colorectal anastamosis 2001.
surgery went horribly wrong,swab left inside,emergency surgery 2001.
total colectomy & ileostomy 2001.
surgical complication's-abcess,more surgery 2001.
more complication's-stitches come apart inside and ended up having more surgery and blood transfusion. 2001.
infection at lap site,another abcess. 2001.
i spent 12mths in Cabrini Private Hospital in Melbourne.
1993 diagnosed with endometriosis,then age 27yrs had radical hysterectomy then 2 mths later lost both ovaries.
2005. bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on the table,also contracted MRSA in coronary care unit,had staph for about 12mths. pic line for 6 mths for venus access,for daily antibiotics.
march 2009. op on a parastomal hernia & re-fashioning of stoma. Then complications,huge abcess in small bowel & peritinitus,emergency laparotomy to remove,icu for 5 day's. I think that's enough, no more.
Am taking AVANZA for my depression & ocd!!!!!!!!!!!