HUGE HUGS, you are going through so much right now.
Have you made the call to a councelor or therapist yet.. your doctor if you have a FP or your OBGYN if not? Even if you do not want medications, they can help you find resources for someone to talk to. Having a baby is so hard WITH a supportive and present spouse. I can't imagine doing it solo but it can be done and you can be proud of taking up for yourself.
Get an appointment with someone quickly. Tomorrow morning, make the phone calls. You don't have to lay it out there on the receptionist. Just say that you are calling to get in for an appointment. (I hate making that call because I hate crying and if someone asks me what is wrong, I will cry).
Biofeedback is something I am going to start researching asap. It is not a chemical, but a machine that balances your brain waves (mine are all wonky).
Just take a deep breath. Come back when you need to talk.
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