Hello and welcome to the best forum on the net. I just had a read of ur post and it sound's to me like ur experiencing ptsd. It must have been something really terrible for you to be so affected. I truly hope you can get some help and get it of ur chest,so to speak. Even coming to this forum help's so much as we all suffer from depression and other illnesses. So remember we are all here for you and if you ned to talk please dont hold back. I dont. lol... Also with the anger stuff,i really feel for you as im going through an anger stage and it's completely out of my character,but cannot control it?? Dont be to hard on urself as ur going through a very tough time. Never justify urself either ok.
Take care and kep posting....
dx bowel cr 2001. permanent ileostomy.
sub-total colectomy 2001,went wrong.
total colectomy 2001,left swab inside,infected,emergency surgery,blood transfusion.
complication 2001,bowel abcess,surgery.
Infection at lap site,another surgery.
Complication's 2001,bowel heamorage,blood transfusion.
Spent 12mths at Cabrini Hospital.
dx 1993 endometriosis chronic.
27 yrs, hysterectomy.
2mths later, bi-lat ophrectomy,removal of both ovaries.
dx 2005,bi-lateral mastectomy,heart attack on operating table,contracted MRSA in Coronary Care Unit.
Picc Line for 6mths for venus access & daily antibiotics.
dx 2009, parastomal hernia,march 09 hernia repair & re-fashioning of stoma.
dx 2009, complications abcess & peritontise,
emergency surgery,icu 5 day's.
dx 1995, chronic depression,o.c.d. & bi-polar11.
Currently taking Avanza,seroquel,valium,asprin & HRT. I get depressed reading this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!