I am sorry for the edit but I had to remove a word from your post. I am sorry that we can't discuss illegal drugs on the forum. But if you have a need to and would like to discuss them, email me. I will be more than happy to talk to you about it.
I think you should try to relax with meeting your new family. I am into art too and I think that it is cool that both you and your mom are artists. Artists are very special and have a unique way of looking at the world.
I can't express enough how cool it is to go with what you are going through. I know that you feel differences with your adopted family. And you will most likely find a lot of similarities with your bio family. This is truly a unique experience that not a lot of people go through. This is yours and it is special. Take it as it comes, it will all workout for the good on both sides. That is okay.
My email address is in my profile, so please do email me. I will make sure to write you back. I have a couple of days off of work so I will have time. That is if you feel comfortable with it. If not, I understand. I know that you have questions that can't be discussed on the forum.
For now, I recommend taking one day at a time. Go with your heart. You will know what to do when the time is right. And keep posting, we are here for you.
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