Welcome to the depression forum. You have come to a good place with many compassionate members.
I understand how you feel about your mother. Mine was like that too. Though she didn't kick me out, but I couldn't wait to move out. So I did as soon as I could. I loved my mom, but she was jealous of me.
As they say, time does heal. But as Jamie said, I think you need to get into some professional counseling to help you deal with these feelings. You may even end up forgiving your mom just to help you to move on. But if you don't, that is understandable too.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Do seek some counseling. It is time that you get some support.
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