Welcome to the HealingWell depression forum. I have to say that alcohol is a depressant. If you are drinking on a regular basis, you are going to be depressed. If you do not want to take medication, the best thing that you could do for yourself and for others is to stop drinking. If you don't stop drinking, expect to be depressed.
Abusing drugs isn't going to help you either. You are going to go from highs to lows. And when the drugs wear off, there you sit. Depressed. Especially narcotics.
If I were you, I would see a doctor and access the situation. You obviously want help, or you wouldn't be here.
best wishes to you. I hope that you feel better soon. But you are right, you are doing this to yourself by alcohol and drug use. And there could be an underlying depression that needs to be treated.
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