Thanks for joining, and I'm sorry to have to edit your post. I take your concerns seriously, and understand you're looking for help, but this isn't a topic fit for our forums.
Unfortunately there is no easy way to fix your concern. Curiousity is normal for someone your age. If you feel out of control though, it may be a sign of other troubles, like depression, and you should talk to a counselor. You don't have to disclose the full details to your parents if you don't want to. Schools have psychologists and counselors who can also direct you to aid.
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"Bipolar disorder can be a great teacher. It's a challenge, but it can set you up to be able to do almost anything else in your life." - CARRIE FISHER