Hi this is my first post. I have tons of problems myself but I won't get into that just here and now. I've experienced the same thing, back during my depression. I would be so upset and I completely lost it many times when I needed help or just needed to talk to someone, and I would pleed with my parents to get me to the doctor right that second, numerous times. And that never happened ofcourse, I had to sit and wait for "the appointment." And then there were the times that I had my parents bring me directly to the emergency room, which happened like 3 times. One of those times I talked to a nice lady and decided not to check in, 2 of those times I did check in. That's not counting the other time I was hospitalized outside those times. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is I feel for you, you're not the only one, it can happen more than once, and just do your best to make it through until friday. just keep yourself busy, I know nothing interests me when im depressed, but as long as you do something to keep yourself busy it will be easier. I find that when I'm not doing anything I'm more depressed and I dwell on my bad feelings. I hoped something I've said may help you, I feel like I'm rambling a bit. This is my first post and I think this place may help me too, and if I recall I read a post about being paranoid I think you posted about it too, and that's one of my main problems, I have extreme paranoia and delusions, I think we could relate. Good luck, and hope to talk to you again.