You are not a loser, you do not fail at everything. You are a good person who cares about others. That is really important.
I am so sorry about your friend dieing of cancer. That is way too young, but I do believe in life after death so I also believe that there is a reason for everything. Often we watch others suffer and learn compassion.
I think that is is time for you to write a list of the positives in your life, it is easy to focus on the negatives, but there are positives we often don't see. It is so much harder to look at the good things about our selves verses the bad.
Changing schools might be a good thing. We don't excell at everything, so there are going to be some courses that we aren't as good at. That is normal, unless you are a brain at everything. So sweetie, try really hard to focus on good right now. Easier said than done, I know, but not impossible.
We are all socially awkward at times. Nobody is perfect. That is a part of life, it takes practice and going with the flow.
I am sorry about your boyfriend, but there will be others, I am sure of that. I know that it hurts, but time heals. And before you know it, you will meet somebody else, in time. When it is right. But I know that you are lonely right now, so maybe it is time to focus on you. Get stronger, learn to love yourself for who you are. Another toughy, but it can be done. Gain confidence, be it though yourself, or counseling. It does happen. You are still young, going through a tough stage. But things do get better. And the more that you like yourself, the more that others are drawn to you.
So keep posting, we are all here for you. Build up your self esteem. Another easier said than done, but also not impossible. Remember, we care about you. Try to remember that you are a good person, worthy of love and kindness. Come to us when you are down. But start working on yourself. This can be done. And we can help you.
Best wishes for a better day. Pamper yourself today if you can. We all need self nurturing.
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