You hate your job, your husband is unemployed and you have a new-born, enough said right there, of course you're hurting! That is enough to break anyone's spirit temporarily, the important thing to remember is your situation is temporary, these things will change, maybe not soon enough for what you're feeling but take some comfort in knowing it will change and get better. You've been through hellish situations before I'm sure, and they passed and it's good and it's bad, and up and down, this is life, except it, pay attention to 3 most important things in your life(I'm not talking about baby, husband, job tho they are extremely important)
(self helpbooks/freshfruits and veggies/pray & or meditate)
consciousness- excersize/work(you are needed),
subconscious- rest(cat naps do wonders)/sleep(no tv on).
Now is most important you take care of yourself even and especially if you don't want to. If you aren't on meds STAY off of them, exaust every natural remedy before you even consider living your life on a script. Not to lay a guilt trip on script junkies everywhere or the drug pushing docs that carelessly over-medicate anyone with health care or cash, but drugs aren't always the answer and in your case the evidence of why you are feeling overwhelmed is odvious, don't seek comfort from a little magic pill, you are a regimented person, utilize the training you've received to keep yourself in line. And so this too shall pass. Talking about what you are feeling, releasing this inner beast on your back is a major step. See, hear, smell, taste, touch the things in life that you enjoy most, treat yourself to what you love, especially now. Hit a spa, pamper yourself from head to toe, you earned and deserve it, you NEED it. Remember to reward yourself sometimes, it is not only good it is Very good. I hope this hard spell passes for you quickly, you are surrounded by love and you are healing as we speak. God bless you and yours. Peace