Remembering Steven 1 year on

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Date Joined Jun 2003
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   Posted 11/19/2004 4:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Well today was hard.  Didn't feel like doing much but this was one of the days tht my carer takes me out and we didn't go out last night so we did 2 things today.  We went to the Foundary for lunch then we went to see the Manchurian Candidate.
I tried to keep myself busy but this day last year kept running through my head it was like an out of body experience where i was looking down watching helplessly the events as the unfolded 1 year ago.
I also got a letter from the west team and i see 2 people on the 2nd December.
"I've woken now to find myself, In the shadows of all I have created, I'm longing to be lost in you, Wont you take me away from me." (evanescence "away from me")

"It rips your heart out and leaves you bleeding with a smile on your face." (HIM "and love said no")

"Happy hunting you double faced carnivore" (Nightwish "Romanticide"

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Date Joined Oct 2004
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   Posted 11/21/2004 2:50 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi ! Sorry I haven't responded to your other posts, I've been really zombified, just couldn't cope with all the things to do that were piling up. Glad to hear you are getting some medication - hope it is helping. yeah
Anniversaries are always hard. It's like your body forces you to remember, even when your conscious mind doesn't want to; like some kind of yearly alarm clock goes off. I've seen it in bereaved friends, years on; they think they're "over it", busy with other things occupying their attention - often very pressing problems; then suddenly they start feeling down and can't understand why - until they look at the calendar.
And it sounds like you're much closer in time Toni, so I'm not too surprised you remember vividly. But if it was a traumatic experience for you, maybe these are actual flashbacks. Is there anything in particular sets off the memories ? How do you feel physically when you see the events ? (I hope I'm not asking you anything too hurtful here.)  
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