You are going through a lot of grief right now. Have you considered grief counseling? I think it would help you tremendously.
Having a loss such as you have is very traumatic. Did they say what caused your son's death? I can't express how sorry I am. But know that the greiveing process is unique to all of us. There is no time limit with this. There is no right or wrong. So go with it and let it all out. In time you will start to feel better. But time is a factor, like I say, there is no limit. Take it as it comes, cry when you feel like it. Yell, scream if you want. Just get it out.
Stay strong for your other kids, but be kind to yourself. You have suffered a huge loss and like I said, there is no right or wrong way to grieve. It all takes time.
Keep posting, let us know how you are doing. We are all here for you.
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