I have been depressed for about
2 years and only recently started to come out of it. I am married with no children and me and my husband have been together for 11 years. However, I have been in love with my best friend (also a woman) for 2 years and recently told her how I feel because I couldn't hold it in any longer.
It turned out that she feels the same way about me and we decided to start seeing each other. We want to be together but don't know how it will work. We also don't want to lose our friendship. Anyway, my problem is that after a few days of my friend and I being together, she told me that it wasn't going to work. She had just split up with her partner and as well as feeling guilty about him, she said it would be much harder for us to split further down the line in case she met a guy.
My problem is that I am so heartbroken and want nothing more than to be with her, I am going insane because she's got her own problems and I dont want to stress her out with this. We are both struggling with it and are even closer as friends but I will never love anybody as much as her and I really don't know what to do.
What makes it worse is that my uni work is suffering, I have my own business and my dog had serious surgery yesterday and nearly died. I am so depressed, I think about because I can't see a way out. Also, with my feelings for my best friend, I have realised that I don't love my husband enough.
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