What happens when the sun starts to shine again?

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Date Joined Jan 2010
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   Posted 1/17/2010 12:14 AM (GMT -6)   
I'd really appreciate your insight.
Last year, I went through a large number of personal crisis events which seemed to keep building up.  Eventually, I ended up with depression symptoms (including lethargic, in tears for days, demotivated, tired, sleepy, suicidal thoughts).  Throughout the process, I have been seeing a psychiatrist and it's been incredibly valuable.
Over the last 8 months, I've tried to own the situation and move it forward.  Until recently, it felt like I was in quick sand and couldn't get traction.
Since New Years, things have changed.  I've made great headway towards getting my lifestyle back and solving a lot of the issues.  Then suddenly, out of the blue two days ago, I started shaking, crying, wanting to sleep and couldn't motivate myself to get moving.  Wow!  I didn't see that coming!  I feel strong again now - my family and friends moved quickly and supported me.
My question is - have you seen this before?  I feel like I'm making great progress ... I feel like I'm getting momentum and things are getting better - so why have I had what feels like a huge set back? 
Do you have to go through what you went through when all the drama started to pull yourself back out?  Is it possible to become so comfortable with living in a depressed, dramatic world that you suffer extreme anxiety when you start to leave that world?
The last few days have really shocked me.  For someone who felt great and was moving forward, I hadn't seen this coming.  I'm off to see a medical professional tomorrow to see if they have any thoughts.
In the meantime, I'd really appreciate your thoughts

Post Edited (kiwifit) : 1/17/2010 12:29:20 AM (GMT-7)

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Date Joined Mar 2009
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   Posted 1/17/2010 2:37 AM (GMT -6)   
hi kf, welcome to the forum, i am jamie, male and 37 years of age. yeah i have seen this, i feel it is our concious will that is always trying to plug back in, for it knows, our mind that things are slipping and it tries very hard to rectify the balance. for me it is somewhat a second wind. even though i am severly depressed, i am not 24/7. even in a depressive episode we find little moments of happiness, usually via someone listening, or via going for a reflective walk, doing the house cleaning, etc. it is when we move and do stuff-is when the depressive part is somewhat put on hold, thus i always recommend doing stuff, me music, cleaning, walking my dog and chatting with my neighbour. this is how i upset the depressive component via action, it is when we roomnate and isolate that causes us to stay in the depressive zone, we need motivational stimuli. with that said we all need rest, we all need work and we all need play. work life balance. hope this helps. thx for posting your situation. chat soon. with compassion, jamie.

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Date Joined Aug 2009
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   Posted 1/17/2010 3:04 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello, and welcome My name is Jamie as well I am a 28 year old female. I joined the forum last fall during a depressive cycle. I feel the same way it feels like my body my mind has been stuck in this depression for so long it just doesn't know how to function any other way. I feel that i have become the depression and without it I really don;t know who I am.

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Date Joined Jan 2010
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   Posted 1/17/2010 9:38 AM (GMT -6)   
I don't know if what I am in just me or am I in just a constant state of depression - have taken several different medications over the last couple of years and it seems I get every single side affect there possibly is - Am currently on Welbutrin but am still so tired, no will and no passion to do anything... I just want to sit in my bed all day and cry... sitting here and writing this in itself makes me realise what a rut I've got myself in - At some point, I feel perhaps its just me and I need to somehow snap out of this...

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   Posted 1/17/2010 12:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi KF,
Another welcome to the forum.  Know that life is full of ups and downs.  And a lot of little things that trip us up.  In time you will learn to over look a lot of it, but right now I am sure it is sending you for a whirl.
I hope that you keep posting on the forum, we all care about you here.  Depression likes to show it's ugly face this time of year.  The days are starting to get longer though and things are going to get better.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.  You are getting a lot of insight on this thread and I hope that it continues.
Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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