hi im 15 years old and have been suffering from depression symptoms since the age of 14. It started when all my friends stopped talking to me because i would often lash out at them and i felt alone and lost. All my teachers noticed and my head of year would always come and talk to me and she even called in my mum. i couldnt stop thinking about
different ways to and have thought about
taking an or when i saw a car i would think what if i just of it. i eventually got most my friends back but i still drifted in and out of being depressed.
I have major mood swings like somedays i feel really positive about
life and very energetic but more often i feel depressed and my friends tend to really irritate which makes me feel guilty. one minute ill be dancing,singing,laughing then the next im really quiet and dont irratable. I hate going to school and i find it difficult to concentrate in class so i get told off which makes me angry and i cry for no reason. Last year i used to self harm but only told my mum because my ex auipar saw the cuts and i knew she would tell her anyway. i felt so ashamed and embarased by my stupid actions. The other day i got a D in my science GCSE exam and instead of being upset it didnt bother me at all and i felt strangely relieved. I tend to leave my homework to the last minute and do it very late at night or rush it in the morning as when i come home from school i usaly go to sleep or watch tv as i constantly feel exhausted. I try to go to bed early but when i do i can never get to sleep as i often have so many things going on in my mind. I am nearly always late for school as i get up as late as possibe to avoid going. I used to be very sociable but i never go out anymore with my friends and have quite all my extra curricular activities. I never tell people how i feel because im embarased and recently my hair has started to fall out in the shower. I dont think my mum will believe me if i tell her these things and she will probably think im trying to get attention. I never realized how bad it got until i started typing this. i have done lods of those bipolar quizzes and they all say that i may be bipolar but i dont no what to do please help thank
Sorry for the edit but we are not suppose to discuss suicide or self harm on the forum. I suggest you talk to somebody asap. Get counseling, you need support. And counseling is the best way to get it.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 1/17/2010 7:10:42 PM (GMT-7)