I would like to say welcome and let you know that ur not alone anymore even though you may not feel that way as yet. I come from a similar background to you but i cop it all from my entire family. Your husband sounds like a very poor excuse for a husband as all he is doing is dragging you down even more than you should be. The loss of ur child must have been one of the hardest thing's to ever have to cope with in life and as a mother myself i can only imagine how terrible this must be for you,but never ever be ashamed of having a cry over ur lost child or for anything else for that matter!!!! You do not deserve to be treated so badly by him and if it were me i would have had the divorce papers thrown in his face as he is just cruel. Doesn't it tell you something about his character when he wouldn't take you to the hospital when you gave birth to your other child??
I also understand what ur saying about putting the mask up and isolating urself and having trouble going out of the house,as i to am very much the same. I only go out when i really have to as in work,doc's ect!! Other than that i dont leave my home and it's just debilitating in every way. Anyway i truly hope u get all the help you need and deserve and maybe an adjustment with ur med's may also help?? Just a thought. Remember ur not alone as we are all here for you darling.
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