Good for you Beverly!!!
I know that this isn't going to be easy for you. They will be nice one day and your'e going to wonder if you should stay, but remind yourself of how it usually is and don't give into it. It will be hard because you truly care about them, worry about them and wonder how they are going to make it. But that is not your responsibility. Your responsibility is to yourself. And right now that is all that matters. You getting out of there and doing better. And you will do better on your own. Or even if you have to share a home with somebody else, it will still be easier than living with your parents. So know that we are behind you, pushing you on. And will always be there for support. So start looking, you don't even have to tell them you are looking. Just do it. And even if the place sin't all that nice, it will be a step up from what you are going through. Who knows, maybe your daughter will act different without them around. But that is another story all together. You need space from her to for a while.
Once you get out on your own, your thinking will clear. You will get used to the new you, and they wont bother you so much because you will be able to see them for who they really are. They are human beings yes, but not very nice ones. But once you leave, they will probably be a lot easier to get along with. But I recommend a seperation from them for a while so that you can move ahead without them interfering.
So this is a good first step forward. Look for a roommate if you have to in the beginning to make it easier to make ends meet. But make sure it is a nice person that you will be albe get along with. That is if you need a roommate. You might find something that you can rent that you wont have to have help. And being out on your own will make you more eligable for help from the government. Maybe some help with rent, or improvements of food. Either way, this could be a win win situation. It all depends on how you look at it.
You can do this Beverly. And we are behind you all the way.
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