You have my sincerest condolences. I know how hard it is to lose a loved one. I lost two family members (My brothers) on the same day in the Iraq war. It is nearly 3 years, and I still cry. But the pain eases, to wear it is bearable. I went into denial for over a year. They were my best friends too. My doctor two weeks after their deaths did the unmistakable thing, brought up the war. I flipped out, cussed him out went in shock, shut down and cried nonstop and quit talking. He knew something was wrong but I went unresponsive. He put me on depression meds and put me in counceling not knowing what is going on. A year later, I said my apologizes to him and told him about my brothers. He told me he would of handled it differently if he knew. However, the counceling really helped. I am at the point where I can talk about it. But honey you need to grieve, you got to let it out. Don't bottle it all up like I did, and be upset for things you should of said. I was mad at both of them and wasnt on talking terms with either. Now its too late for me to turn back time and tell them I'm sorry and start talking to them. Keep talking to us, it will help a little bit.
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Medications: Tri Nessa, Percocet, Metformin, Prilosec, Protonix, Zantac, Advair, Cingulair, Albuterol, Calcium + Vitamin D, Pro-Air, Pepcid, Rolaids, Zofran, Compuzeen, Refresh Plus Eye Drops PRN: Epi-Pen, Albuterol Nebulizer, Benedryl
Undergoing Radiation Taking Lorazepam (Ativan) on Radiation Days