Greetings man, I feel ya. My grandmother, only grandparent I knew, lived with us and died on my 10th birthday. I realized then, we live, we die. This is the real deal. That said, it is up to us how we spend our lives, we are given choices, do we simply exist suspended in a perpetual state of negativity or do we CHOOSE to live in a healthy, happy and content state or at least strive for that. Of course loved ones dying hurts like HELL. Were your departed loved ones good people? What were some of the strengths and positive charactoristics of the ones you loved and lost. Focus on those beautiful points and embrace what you've learned from them. In this, you keep them alive forever. Share your life lessons with those more unfortunate than yourself. You are a great, strong and unique person. You have a certain quality, it is now up to you to let yourself heal and find the thing inside you that is good and pure and share it with everyone you meet. Death is part of life, it is the natural ebb and flow like the tide. There is a universal balance, you are learning this first hand and it is good(even if you can't feel it yet). Get your ass back to school, talk to a councelor about exactly what you brought to this forum. Don't give up on living. Finish what you start in life, school is cool. It will keep your mind occupied with positive things, make friends, fall in love, read good books, pray, smile, remember how to laugh. I am speaking for every person you've lost in your life, don't give up, live your life to the best of your abilities, make every moment count. Life is short tho some days seem l o n g.
I wish you all the best. You're gunna be alright, allow this to be. Peace
Post Edited (joeboot) : 12/7/2004 3:58:30 PM (GMT-7)